Where I’ve been the past month — and a lesson in slowing down.
I’ve spent the past four weeks in New Zealand, (mostly) disconnected from social media.
I was invited to be the inaugural Creative in Residence for Parihoa Farm, the hub of a global creative, wellbeing, and fitness network created by @mc2_life.
I’ve been living on the farm, writing, connecting with run clubs, and spending lots of unstructured time reflecting on this year and what’s ahead.
The farm itself, nestled on the cliffs of Muriwai Beach, is breathtakingly surreal. Like living inside a screensaver.
And yet, my first two weeks here were unexpectedly challenging. Being alone in a remote location with just my thoughts — and not indulging my impulse to numb out on social media — felt overwhelming. I’ve grown so accustomed to moving at a certain pace, with a never-ending to-do list, constantly multitasking and compartmentalizing, that slowing down and simplifying felt unnatural.
Isn’t it ironic? That being literally immersed in nature felt the least natural to my body’s rhythm.
That discomfort forced me to confront my deeply ingrained need to constantly strive. My guilt around not being “productive” stems from lifelong perfectionism to mask deep-seated insecurities. Through my OCD recovery program, I continue to retrain my mind that my worth isn’t tied to my output.
Having an empty calendar and the space to pour energy into creative projects has reminded me that stillness is not only okay; it’s essential.
I recognize what a rare privilege it is to have the freedom to step off life’s treadmill in such a beautiful country. I’m deeply grateful to @parihoa_, @mc2_life, and @fleursaville for this gift.
I wish everyone could experience a similar pause. But even small moments of quiet reflection make a difference. Whether it’s taking a tech-free walk, doing a guided meditation, spending your morning away from your phone, or journaling before bed, slowing down creates the space to refresh and reconnect with ourselves.
I’m all for striving for excellence and working hard to drive impact. AND it’s important to reflect on the intention behind ambition and recognize the beauty of the present.